That One Tuesday Evening

I consider It a miracle. A supernatural thing that has happened to me.

(I am currently at work but I can’t get my thoughts together and I just really needed to get this all out now.)

Last night I attended our usual Tuesday bible study and we talked about forgiveness. I know what you have in mind – this might be one of the hardest things to do in life. I was reminded of how I used to hold grudges against my foes and against the people who purposely hurt me. I was reminded of how I wanted to get my cunning revenge to them so I could make them feel the pain they made me feel. I was reminded of what my previous life was.

Going back to the miracle I was telling you about, it’s a miracle why I am in this unworthy, undeserving position.

It all started two years ago when I experienced by most hurtful heartbreak. I was beautifully swept off my feet and everything seemed too good to be true. However, there was one problem. I didn’t know the purpose of what I was doing. I was left with no vision, no clue of what was happening in my life. All I knew was I was seizing the day and I tried to be as happy as possible.

Then one day, when I thought I’d be swept off my feet again, I was left falling on my feet. He said I wasn’t good enough. He said we can’t be together. I was puzzled. I got mad and worst, I got lost. I kept on making bad decisions, one over the other and I thought my life was over.

I was suddenly reminded of forgiveness. The forgiveness one could easily be given because of love. I remembered how God forgave me, and kept on forgiving me for my sins. Me? Why would he forgive me? Or even, why would He choose me? I am not worthy. I am undeserving. I am sinful. I am nothing. But He is great because He chased me. He keeps on chasing me whenever I would lose my track. He would always tell me to go back to Him, because in Him I’ll find peace and comfort.

I couldn’t contain how much God has done in my life. Who would have thought that I will be chosen by God as His own? I cannot fathom. Every time I’m reminded of how Jesus Christ died for me on the cross, I cannot understand why we are still loved. That’s just who God is. He is the perfect manifestation, and epitome of unconditional love.

All I know is that God continues to move in my life. I am not perfect. No one is. But I have a perfect God.

God forgave, forgives, and will forgive. Have you forgiven?

 

Do you have your own stories also? Let’s talk!

 

 

EDSA traffic: An avenue of whatnots

Getting stuck in the EDSA traffic is no-joke especially when one has to experience it five days in a row. Alarming and annoying as it may be, neither a driver nor a commuter could do something about it at the moment. News, facts and opinions as to how to solve this ever existent problem arise from broadsheets, online articles, to tabloids. The government’s efforts are “well-recognized” on addressing to this issue, to the point of suggesting an extreme modification on work schedule, through the four-day work law.

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People have differing comments on the  “see-if-it-works” strategy of the government, saying that it is the one responsible for the chaos the Philippines undergoes, or that Filipinos have no discipline. Others who have partly made sense of some things would reasonably say it should be atonement between the two facets.

As for me, this traffic helped me a lot to keep me sane despite the hustle, and loss of economic profit and quality of time due to the hours of travelling to work. It provides me the time to unwind, observe, and think clearly.

My lengthy introduction would make one think this must be one of the other opinionated articles published to make people “think twice” of their actions. Probably yes… but probably not.

Each day, one of my duties as a media relations associate is to monitor press releases and client clippings in newspapers, that’s why I already made it a habit to skim news and articles. But what would interest me a lot are feature articles, especially those about the traffic. There’s this one I read this morning that says traffic is slowly killing Filipinos. Another one from a major broadsheet would suggest ways on how to be productive despite the bitter truth, instead of ranting.

In this case, I want to share what I’ve been randomly thinking whenever I engage in the gridlock.

  1. “Kasalanan ‘to ng gobyerno”

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This item on top of my list is very timely for the election is at hand.  Several candidates have their own gimmicks, hand in hand contact with endorsers on who’ll be getting who in the celebrity industry. I’m sure that most of them would vie for ‘AlDub’ especially that the phenomenal love team top-notched not only the social media but also the hearts of the Filipino people. However, the fact that 130 presidentiables filed their intentions is already very alarming. One could not determine easily why this political joke is happening. But one thing is for sure, the record-breaking status of the country in regard to corruption is a major factor for all of these.

Their never-ending promises on the betterment of the country, on ‘I believe’, ‘we need’, ‘I will’ are some of the cliches we hear from these candidates, who could never address to the destruction of the Train Stations (MRT, LRT), that caused all the more traffic.

  1. The pasaway pedestrians and kaskaserong drivers

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Honestly speaking, I never realized how important it is to follow road rules until I learned how to drive. I’ve experienced driving to main roads to back roads and my lack of knowledge on road signs made it difficult for me. But what’s more difficult to deal with are the uneducated attitude of Filipinos in terms of driving and walking. It’s very annoying to see vehicles turning on a no-left turn or no u-turn block, or beat the stoplight. These kinds of drivers who don’t know how to wait are major contributors to a few accidents, which caused more hustle. As for the pedestrians, I just want to address this: Do you have this thinking that you actually don’t care when vehicles are about to hit you just because you think you’re always right? Darling, there’s this thing you called pedestrian lanes, built for humans. You cannot instil in you the angst of crossing whenever/wherever you want, then putting the blame to the poor drivers who follow rules.

  1. Smiling is everything

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The Philippines is a tropical country which experience more time in heat than cool. There’s a saying that you can’t kill fire with fire. If everyone else is ranting and having a bad time because of the queue in the MRT/terminal, ask yourself whether adding up to the happening will do you any good or not. It’s really helpful to smile at frowning people and don’t be afraid to feel rejected when he/she doesn’t smile back.

  1. I might have probably met my one true love, or not?

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Funny thing to say but admittedly, I’d often think whether I have crossed path with the man of my life or not. Sometimes, the stares and stolen glances help to ease the bad vibes on waiting for your turn. But everything happens in time, don’t they?

  1. Driving the road less travelled

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“Don’t expect a different result when you keep doing the same ways”.

Indeed, EDSA is the main road. But one shouldn’t be afraid to take alternate routes. When I did my talk to UST ELSSOC during its general assembly, I compared my journey to driving and getting to a destination. The point is, never settle to one thing. The backroads and the secondary roads should be given a try because sometimes, they make one’s life easier. It’s the same thing as not settling for where you are now, but be an explorer. Go on an adventure. Make mistakes, pass by road blocks, no entry, and stop signs. After all, you’ll still get into your destination. Just make sure to use WAZE – or not.